The many uses
File under cool as fuck.
Oh, this just gave me so many ideas for my .50 cal cans…..
I was diagnosed with Bipolar II just recently and I think now that I know what is wrong with me, I get even more frustrated. My doctor is easing me on a mood stabilizers so I’m still having episodes. It kills me that this is what I have to live with and that I have to adapt to different ways to control my episodes. When people notice you aren’t yourself. When your face feels sunken in and you’re in a fish bowl then the next day or you are happy as can be and can’t sleep. It sucks. I’m fighting a battle within myself that no one can understand and I can’t even explain to people. It’s hard to put into words how I feel and when I do I regret what I say because it’s crazy. So I just live with the thoughts racing through my mind and hearing voices. I just want to get better.
The worst feeling in the world is knowing that talking about how you feel, and how you’re struggling, pushes the people you care most about away. So you stay silent and suffer on your own.